You know the airplane cookie… On Delta they say, “Peanuts, Pretzels, Cookies?”
I always want to JUMP out of my seat and Yell, “Yahoooo COOKIES!!!” I watch the cart coming down that skinny, tiny aisle. I practice how I will ask without seeming crazy about these cookies… I want my smile to convey I am happy, but NOT too happy!!! NOT too excited to enjoy Biscoff Cookies. During this mental preparation I will usually turn to the person next to me and start to share about the cookies… why I like them, why I wish they weren’t so crumbly, and talk about my Roommate Audry who makes Biscoff Cupcakes!!! Yes, I over share about the Biscoff, but I don’t really CARE because I am soooo EXCITED to invite that stranger into the BEST inflight sweet FREE treat!!!
I have found that I am a more nervous traveler than ever before. I don’t really understand why, but I know Biscoff Cookies help, and BONUS, they are Vegan!!! When I see the cart traveling down the aisle I know things will be more controlled with those Biscoff Cookies!!! I know I can sink into my seat, think about those sweet treats, and forget that I am flying through the air in a tin can… Side Note: my parents are a retired pilot and current flight attendant so I know all the statistics about flying, but I still get NERVOUS and my Comfort is those stinking COOKIES!!!
Have you ever had a sense that things were spinning too quickly that you couldn’t even get a good handle on how to move forward… you are NOT in control anymore… it is in those moments I want Biscoff Cookies!!! Honestly, if you told me what I would be doing this Fall I would have thought you were Crazy… I would have asked for a BUCKET of Biscoff Cookies!!! No, not because I have had three weddings in three weeks (all that I am SOOO Blessed to be part of), or because half of Mason's, one of my doodle dogs, foot pad on his paw has fallen off (don’t worry we will talk about that later), or because I am WEIRDLY more obsessed with the show Scandal this season then I was LAST season even though my Roommate Emily has to tell me when it is okay to look…
Simply because God has stretched me, God has grown me, and God has changed me… None of those things come without leaving a bit of our comfort behind!!!
I want and crave security. IN the moments when things start to spin, I want to be brave… TRULY I Do, but I find myself eating cookies and having positive self talk… “Kelsey, this is going to be fine!” “Kelsey, You are OKAY” “KELSEY, it is more dangerous to drive a car… YEAH, but AT LEAST I’m driving the CAR” (Sometimes my self talk gets heated)!!!!!
Here is what I believe today after living the past 4 Months… God has CALLED Me to something GREATER than I could have asked or imagined, but the COMFORT I take is NOT in Biscoff Cookie eating… INSTEAD my Security is that GOD has called me!!! I can’t quite understand the way our God works, but what I know today more than any other season of my life is that HE is in control. With that I have clarity. With that in the midst of Chaos I see clearly, Biscoff in hand or not!!!
To be honest in this season of my life with fear has come immense freedom… I am Me!!! I more of the ME I was designed and created to be. I have the humbling Honor to tell people about God’s incredible love, to start things I have dreamed of being part of, to travel, to speak, to make others laugh, to rest in the arms of my Father, to work with friends with disabilities, to be embrace my boring me, and at the end of the day I get to settle into a home I love, with people I love, and eat as many Biscoff cookies as I want! Well, as many as I want until God CALLS me again the next day to be Brave because my Position is SECURE in Him alone!!!
And I wouldn’t trade it… I wouldn’t trade watching God RAISE $100,000, giving me the perfect job, the most GENEROUS people, and ALL of the tiny details that make my heart SOAR… See, I find it JOY to talk about God’s Love, to have a sense of my Father’s Voice, and to know the heartbeat of the way I was created! I count it gain when God strips us from what is normal, and instead does MORE than we ask or imagine… I count it GAIN when I see the way God has designed and created me because I am not in controll! BECAUSE God has Stepped in and said, “I will GO BEFORE YOU, and I will NOT LEAVE YOU!!!” FOR that I will put down my Biscoff Cookies!!!
Friend, WHAT are you holding on to??? What feels like comfort and security… WHERE do you want God to Show Up??? Can I tell you about the MOST Extravagant, Sweetest Comfort and Love you will ever know... That Yes, is FREE???
Here is to finding life in the midst of Chaos, and seeing our God as He brings Clarity!!!
And when the chaos seems to swirl… Help yourself to a Biscoff… Or 3, and then rest in the arms of your Father!!!